BURN IN ME

As I lay here feeling so tired but yet I am so awake. I wonder, wonder why a person would feel alone. Yet it's not a feeling you ask for, it just happens sometimes. I'm running, running fast after a King, my prince, my everything. Yet I wonder why it is I that feels so alone sometime with a wishing and a wanting for someone to love me. Then I realize that God has always loved me, even before time began. He knew me and he died for me. He is alive and I want to know this King who knows the desires of my heart. A King who can comfort me in my times of struggle, pain and emptiness. It's only he who can comfort me. He sees and hears the cries of my heart. My heart is crying out to him to come and fill me up. As I stand at a wall wanting to break it down, climb it or find some way around it. I yet again realize that it is in the stagnant waters that I learn how to swim. If I was just thrown into a raging river I would drown. As I stand before the wall, I pray and I pray. He is teaching me how to pray and how to look to him in the midst of everything. In the midst of the noise and every other distraction, I focus my eyes and my ears to him and him alone. He is building, not a wall but a relationship with me. One I can truly value. If he just gave me everything I asked for in the moment I asked, it would be of little value to me. But it is in the silence, in the desert place that I come before him and cry at his feet. It is at this time I tarry and tarry at the wall he is soon to break. This wall isn't a burden or something I should get mad at and give up. It is in my chasing after what is beyond the wall that I truly receive a reward. It is in the tarrying and the times of coming before him and receiving nothing but begging for it all, that draws me closer to him and to his heart. It is the longing, praying and the position of my heart that is building relationship with my God, my Creator. He is more magnificent than I ever knew. I wake up every morning just hoping the day will never end and I go to bed ever night begging for another hour in his presence. I long for his heart more than anything. All he wants is me, IS ME!!! I will never stop chasing him. He has chased me for way to long now it's my turn to go after his heart that It may become mine. I want to rejoice for what he rejoices. I want to ache for what his heart aches for. I want to love what he loves. I want his desires to be my own. I want to sing what's on his lips and I want to feel all that he feels. He has placed a fiery seal of desire on my heart and that fire cannot be put out! BURN IN ME!!!