GIVE ME JESUS

It's weird when your life is jolted, smashed and flipped in circles and you realize you did it all to yourself without knowing it in the instance of your sin. Then you get a shock, a shock of the reality your living in. Not a bad shock, an amazingly good, painful shock. The kind of shock where you stop and look at what your doing to yourself and the people around you. The kind of shock that in an instant you realize what the devil is trying to do...take you away, move you further from your destiny and put before you things you used to feel were more important than the love of God...mans love and acceptance. A shock that takes you through your sin and lays you out naked before a city, a congregation. It's the way you react to this revealing of sin you have been living in that so many are living in too. It's easy to wonder and wish other's same sin would be uncovered but then you realized the work God is doing in you and the unveiling of your sin was the next step toward your destiny. Sin covered only holds you back. I've now realized i was a car, a car on a road to the middle of no where. Then i woke up and was able to tell myself the truth "your a car on your way to the middle on no where". It was in my revelation of this that i realized the love God has for me. He can take this beat up car in need of him and make it new again. He can take this path that I've been so blindly driving on and make a new path paved beautifully for me to drive on. No matter how far i strayed and no matter how much i denied that I was on a road destined for the end of a cliff, he's there waiting for me to cry out. I realize the path my car was on was not where i wanting it to be. I had turned down the wrong street once, then twice, then three times. There is something that is beautiful, i feel, in time of brokenness. Something that God reveals to you when you sit before him crying out for him to literally change your way of thinking. Change your heart, change you mind. Him coming inside of you and changing old habits, old ways of thinking, old ways of feeling. When you feel him place a seed inside you and everyday you feel him watering it. When you sit and pray, sing, cry and laugh in his presence. He is there watering this seed, watching it grow and is smiling over you as you grow in love, truth and knowledge of him and his love for you. There is so much beauty in Gods love for me. He is my true love. He loves me in my sin, in my repentance and in my restoration. When there is true repentance, there is true and complete restoration. Identity is the key to unlocking destiny. When you know his love for you, you can truly love him. It's then he gives you the key. He never stops giving. I have this sword now, a sword i so many times looked passed, so many times gave up and went after lesser things. It was in my realization of the mighty warrior i am that i now picked this sword up and am never letting it go. Every day i will find a way to use it. I'm going after my destiny and nothing can take this fire, nothing will take this joy, nothing and no one will take this burning. I'm finding my identity in my God and I'm ready to take the world back, so give me Jesus!!!!!!!!